Feeling Blue

I'm feeling a bit blue today, even though I have a good weekend ahead of me. I am finding my job just naff at the moment. This is not really anyone's fault, well no one internally. I'm also not in a position to complain too much now because a whole team, in another bit of the organisation, has been put on cautionary redundancy notices. This is because a chunk of their funding is yet to be confirmed after the end of March by the funder. So yeah it's all a bit miserable in the office. Boss is on annual leave so I can't talk to him about it. I keep going to meetings and talking about the future but it all feels very hollow. I've been through all the job sites I can think of and I have a couple that I think I'll apply for. There's nothing that leaps off the page as 'my dream job.'
James keeps telling me to trust God. I want to, but I'm so down about this I find I can't even pray about it. I've turned into my worst nightmare, where I keep burying my head and hoping everything will be OK.
I'm sorry my blog is turning into a kind of up and down rant from happy and motivated to plain old down in the dumps.